Jessie's Sky

FACEBOOK上被同事TAG了一张照片，看得我心惊胆战的，我称它为“打手”照，当然这样的形容让同事们笑得前仰后合，但我真的就是这感觉，看起来也太STRONG了，我自己都受不了自己现在的形象了。每每想到这里，就感觉自己的男友对我有着无比的包容（因为如果我是男的，我才不会跟个胖妞在一起呢，何况自己又不那么温柔，任性，还有很多的坏习惯）。

 

减肥，换发型。。。这是我每次拍完照片后的最深感触。我的头发啊，真是完全没有造型可言，身材就更别提了，完全是一副中年妇女的体型嘛。夏天到了，总不能在带着我的那副“汽车轮胎”出门了（呼拉圈已经不足以形容了）。毛毛燥燥的头发也确实看起来不太凉快。就像hui hong说的，我梳没梳头看起来都是一样的。

 

昨晚跟Mel一起见了她离开前的最后一面，心里有点失落。不知道下次什么时候再见了。台北，我估计是没那么快有机会能去到。

Few months ago, a Saturday afternoon bought a new bag at the small shop near my home. Had a not bad gossip with the seller aunty, who was full of passion and kind. She helped me register my name as a VIP, and asked for my handphone number.

 

However, out of my expectation, she called me many times and tried to be matchmaker for introducing her relative to me, She did all the things which makes me feel bad and getting crazy.

Everytime she asked me where I was, with who, doing what. Gees! Slowly I became impatient to answer her call. But she just kept bothering me at late of night time and time again. Her purpose was clear, looking for a girl date with her nephew and tried to lead to marry. But she did it in a wrong way really!

"Go to meet her nephew and show bad impression to them, then I can escape from this ridiculous comedy." that is what i thought.

 

Finally I went for the appointment as the seller aunty's request on the weekend.

"Short, Nice, Local" is my comment on that guy.

He's almost same height as me (I wore sports shoes on that day). Dress up like an old uncle over 35 yrs old. Always gave me multiple-choice questions, but an open question. Gradually, I found he's a typical local guy. He must never meet a lot of friends, lack of communication expereince with different type of friends from different industrials. I can not say he is not good enough, but he just not the right person to be my friend. It's difficult to find any interesting topic to talk with him.

 

He tried to ask my opinion for a seat or just walking. I told him three times of "Starbucks", but he just kept mention TeaHouse. When we stood at the gate of starbucks, he asked, maybe we can enter this cafe for a break. haiz....

He insisted order me a cake after few times rejection. "cheeze cake if you want to order" I answered. Whereas, he bought me a chocolate cake.

A German gentleman moved to our table and wanted a seat. I started to talk with the friendly warm gentleman in who is working for airline. We kept talking and laughing, but that poor guy just sit there quietly.  Haiz. felt really sorry for him!...

Grandpa just returned to home for his last 6 months life, mom is moving into hospital for heart problem. What the fuck! Life is so sucks!

 

Thinking back, I feel guilty for mom and dad really. I've been out of family for over 5 years, I never really care of parents so well, only working on my own business. And the fact is, I'm the loser both in work and life.

 

Should I move back for taking care of them? cos I'm the only child of my family, I have the responsibilty. Or I just keep apart with them and carry on exploring this world and fighting for my future. I'm confusing now...

混混沌沌地又过了一周，总有种不知道自己在做什么的感觉。

ACCA——大学时的梦想，可是昂贵的考试费和几乎天书般的专业英文，让我不自觉地打起了退堂鼓。要知道如果花了钱，耗了时，努了力还没有结果，会是件非常痛苦的事情。为了不想自己受那样的煎熬所以放弃了学习的念头。现在两三年过去了，在惠丰的建议下我又重新开始了思考与挣扎，到底学还是不学。看着那些厚厚的书本（A4的纸头，圣经那么厚）真有点头晕目眩的感觉，真不知道，这要读到什么时候才能完成。不过就像同事朋友说的，不要去担心那些还没有发生的事，只要向着自己的目标努力就一定会有结果。想想朋友的话，想想学成后的好处，再辛苦地学习也值得的。不想再犹豫了，年底前就去注册报名。ACCA我来咯，哈哈